DanielDaniel craves attention
Day and night
Always and forever
He lives in my dreams and dances in the clubs
We party hard and sleep even harder
And at night he sprinkles my room with confetti made out of dead leaves
In order to bring me good dreams
I don't have good dreams anymore because
I sleep at his grave
ChildhoodThe way you seemed to stand still when the tall grass swayed with the wind.
(But it seemed like the wind could carry you off at any moment)
How you used to cough and act like you were dying when someone lit up a cigarette.
(But I knew you kept a secret stash underneath your dresser)
When you acted scared of tiny spiders.
(But you always killed the big ones for me)
Whenever you danced with the vegetables in the vegetable isle in the store claiming they were Veggie Tales.
And I Try to RunNobody.
Never again caringOther's eyes are always followingBodies all meld together and twist up around me like vines suffocating Oscillating moods range from anger to disappointment Disembodied voices choke me as I try and swim towards the lightYou're the only face I see
My life as a N.O.B.O.D.Y.
And still, I try to swim.
I thank God constantlyWhite paint. I spread it all throughout the canvas, where ever I make a mistake.
And the mistake disappears.
Protect me from what I wantI sometimes wish I was a vampire
because vampires can smoke without having to worry about death
and then I could look cool and then maybe you would notice me
and for the first time in my life I wouldn't be so fricking alone
and then maybe I wouldn't need you to notice me
so I wouldn't have a reason to smoke
then I would not want to become a vampire
because everyone knows vampires have no souls